That’s right there’s a birthday coming up within our household.
But – yeah there’s a but – the birthday person isn’t here to celebrate with us.
And for that reason, I mostly do not like the month of May….
Although there is Mother’s Day and my Mum’s birthday too, there is another person who should be here to celebrate a birthday too.
Yes, that’s right.
It’s the birthday of my first-born.
This year Samuel should be here with us turning 17.
17!! OMG!! Where have those years gone?! I am starting to feel old, although it does still only feel like yesterday that he was born.
7.23pm on May 11 1994… healthy 9lb 3oz baby boy… first-born son of myself and my now ex-husband R.
To know that he would be in college and maybe have his learner’s licence, wondering how life would be if my big boy were still here with me and all of those that loved him so so much.
Would he have his gorgeous curls or would he have his hair cut short to keep them at bay?
Would he have a special girl that he would tell he loved?
Would he still love to help around the house like he used to?
This year will be a bitter-sweet day on Samuel’s birthday as it is also the day we head off to Melbourne for the children to have their heart testing done the following day….
To think that it is only because of Samuel’s passing that we have to go, but on his birthday too?!
So this year Samuel’s birthday with be celebrated somewhat differently.
Maybe we can find a nice park and let a balloon or two go for him, but then again we can do it before we go…
Each birthday that we haven’t had Samuel here for has been hard but the major ones are harder… so next year for Samuel’s 18th birthday I already have something in mind. But let’s celebrate Samuel’s 17th first….